I Would Rather

I would rather be frozen
than melt into those arms
that I can't have ever...

I would rather be numb
than feel those emotions surging inside me
that I wish to be commanded...

I would rather be deaf
than hear that voice so sweet
that I know will never soothe me...

I would rather be dry-eyed
than cry into those precious hands
that I love more than my life...

I would rather be forgotten
than be remembered by that heart
that I know beats not for me...

I would rather die in my abyss
than live in the false hope
that I shall be hers and she mine...